D'espairsRay Confessions

A long time ago I was very desperate, because my life was...

Sun, 09 Sep 2012 23:30:28 +0200

A long time ago I was very desperate, because my life was really horrible. But at that time one friend sent me link to D’espairsRay’s PV and at that time I felt like my life should be better and I can’t just give up.Thanks to D’espairsRay I found myself once again and started to live again with HOPE.I can’t even describe how happy am I for falling In Love with this band ♥ They are the best band in this world and always will be.No one can take them away from my heart so they will stay here forever.

I used to believe Hizumi and Karyu are brothers. I was...

Sun, 09 Sep 2012 00:01:00 +0200

I used to believe Hizumi and Karyu are brothers. I was absolutely convinced they had a very close relationship, I could feel it in the way they treated each other.

MOD POST

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 05:15:39 +0200

As you may know D’espairsRay’s 13th anniversary is on September 9th so I thought of...

Karyu is one BAD ASS guitarist.

Wed, 15 Aug 2012 02:20:35 +0200

Karyu is one BAD ASS guitarist.

He’s a man I would marry.He’s just perfect.

Tue, 24 Jan 2012 04:18:39 +0100

He’s a man I would marry.
He’s just perfect.

This morning, I was sitting on bus on way to school,...

Wed, 11 Jan 2012 06:57:07 +0100

This morning, I was sitting on bus on way to school, Kaleidoscope played in my headphones.. And I was just thinking how their music is calming me down, how it’s taking the pain away.. I was thinking of how my life is now, everything’s just so bad but when I heard Hizumi’s voice.. Though they aren’t together anymore, they will always be ALL I really have. I had to try so hard not to cry, but couldn’t. Thank you, D’espairsRay.

Submit box is always open!

Tue, 10 Jan 2012 16:30:50 +0100

Please feel free to send in confessions everytime! :)

Thank-you for making mine. I really appreciate it. I wanted to tell you, the skill with which you design these is amazing! Its so lovely. You really place the design in the most significant and artful ways. TY <3

Thu, 24 Nov 2011 03:41:54 +0100

Omg thank you!! <33I don’t know what to say now, I just feel so honored! ^////////^

It´s hard to describe my feelings by words. How much I love...

Tue, 15 Nov 2011 23:19:34 +0100

It´s hard to describe my feelings by words. How much I love you, how much I adore you, how much I want to see you in front of my eyes with a big smile on your face. Yes I saw you once in front of my eyes and you saw my happy face, it was the best day of my life. I will never forget you. You are in my heart ♥ Forever.

When I hear your pain and suffering, inside I bleed so deeply...

Mon, 14 Nov 2011 18:05:05 +0100

When I hear your pain and suffering, inside I bleed so deeply and so quickly. Somehow my heart has been linked to yours and your pain that I feel bleeds into my tears and my heart aches with you. That is why I could never listen to songs like Yami ni Furu Kiseki, and Kohaku, and R.E.M., Heaven’s Color, too often like other mania. It takes me 2 seconds for the pain to set in and to cry, when I see your sad face, or hear your aching heart. But instead, I would rather deliver you happiness. Forever, may you find love and be full of happiness.

Please keep going! I love your confessions!

Tue, 11 Oct 2011 00:30:03 +0200

Thank you so much! I will keep going on & post the submissions of you all! <3

D’espairsRay were the one who taught me to keep going and not...

Sun, 02 Oct 2011 23:27:20 +0200

D’espairsRay were the one who taught me to keep going and not to give up.

I have sadomasochistic fantasies about all members.That does...

Sun, 02 Oct 2011 23:26:04 +0200

I have sadomasochistic fantasies about all members.
That does not mean that I’m less worth as a fan.
Their music hits me right in the heart and will always be a big part of my life.

I am envious of the chemistry D’espairsRay had, and the...

Fri, 30 Sep 2011 16:47:00 +0200

I am envious of the chemistry D’espairsRay had, and the loyalty of the fans they possess. They make me fantasize about my future as a musician, and I wish I could sit and ask them for advice. I wish I could sit and tell them how beautiful they all are. I wish I had been able to feel their music spontaneously under my feet, live and emotive and making the floor rumble and my lungs vibrate in my chest.

Hizumi, when your voice switches from beautiful, clear high...

Fri, 30 Sep 2011 16:45:40 +0200

Hizumi, when your voice switches from beautiful, clear high notes to emotive screams and pleas for understanding in a world full of misunderstandings, I want to hold you close and tell you it’ll be alright.

“Wakarimasu. Kitto daijobu.”

I'm sorry, but I don't think you can consider yourself a mania if you're having sexual fantasies more than you are enjoying music or buying CDs. It seems like so many people are more concerned about pictures than the music or posting disturbing, inappropriate things about the band on tumblr than talking about what they like about the music or the members personally. It's more image than music for them. If that's what you're into, then fine, I just find it gross.

Fri, 30 Sep 2011 01:53:13 +0200

You know a shit about me, so don’t talk like as if. You didn’t even ask if I like their...

Oh so we're debating what a "real fan" is, are we? I'd like to offer an opinion to the mix. There are no "real fans" or rankings in fans at all. We are all Mania. All mania are equal because we all love one thing: D'espairsray. It doesn't matter how many CDs you have, how long you've been a fan, whether or not you have fantasies about a member of the band. We are all equal. Stop finding stupid shit to fight or judge over.

Fri, 30 Sep 2011 00:25:38 +0200

OK, and this is NOT what you said at the beginning. And btw you started that discussion and judged...

I wish I’d had the courage to see them live when I had...

Tue, 27 Sep 2011 17:39:28 +0200

I wish I’d had the courage to see them live when I had the chance. I think it will be something I will always regret.

I respect them so much that I would never use them for perverted shower fantasies. In fact I am not using them for any perverted fantasy.

Tue, 27 Sep 2011 05:36:35 +0200

That’s ok also. But I saw that much of the mania is perverted, so I chose this as a...

Sometimes in the shower, I think about Karyu in there with me,...

Tue, 27 Sep 2011 05:02:48 +0200

Sometimes in the shower, I think about Karyu in there with me, naked and smelling like my shampoo. It makes for good “me” time.